The moment you discover all of the things you feared, came to life, can be a pretty significant eye opener. Was it karma or the 'law of attraction'? In some ways, "I deserve everything that is happening." Her image was exactly as I imagined myself getting into. Vain beauty, heart-by-the-throat love, masterful manipulation and all of the insidious creations it comes with (lies, cheating, betrayal, and heart break). Could she be a materialization of my mind, a creation out of karma, or a maternal re-reminder of the past.

Whatever it is, Gemini as it's always been, there are two sides. I am so glad it's over and the final red hand slapped me in the face enough to walk away. Wait a minute, I just saw her beautiful face and imagined it demeaning herself in unfathomable proportions, just to stay alive. Why put yourself in that position? Baby, which Hell is not that bad? Your favorite feeling is worth it. Then, there I am again, back to square one trying to repaint the surface a different color. She claims "you won't ever regret it" and fuck me was she ever wrong.